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I've decided not to write in my blogs, or post bulletins about my life issues on myspace anymore. It just causes drams. Everyone and their fucking sister has myspace. It seriously ruins everything. Livejournal is so much better when it comes to expressing feelings.
So, I like this guy scott. I would usually say "boy", but scott is everything but a boy. He's a man. Anyways. I like him a lot. a lot. a lot. I spent some time with him on friday night, and it was no doubt, the most amazing night of my life.
Scott used to be my manager at work, but then he transferred out. I've seriously had it for him since the first moment I saw him. Then he started showing interest in me. =] We talked about hanging out for a while, but never did..until friday.
We're not in a relationship right now, due to, he isnt' ready to be in one. And that's fine. I like him enough to wait.
Friday night was so amazing. I went over to his house at about 8. We just hung out for a while..watched star wars...he showed me around his place. When his roommates left, we started watching intermission. He got up to take a shower, but when he got back, things got really "comfortable". We started to get closer, and he asked me if i was comfortable. We got closer, and closer. and then he kissed me. It was so amazing. That's the only word I have to describe it. As the night progressed..things happenned. Then, he held me most of the night while we slept. It was great, and so needed. He doens't sleep much. So, the next morning when he woke up, he tucked me in and gave me some kisses. He let me sleep for a while, and he had his coffee. Then he came back to bed, and laid with me and talked to me while I woke up. It was a great morning. We went out into the living room, and we just spent time together. It was indiscribable. He told me things about him that I didnt' know, showed me his rubics cube skills, and we played keyboard together. We talked about what happenned the night before. He told me that he likes me, and that he enjoys my company. But he doesnt want a relationship right now. And surprisingly, I was okay with that. I knew that I wasn't just a fuck, and that he actually cared about my feelings. He played me some music that he wrote on the keyboard, and i played "my heart will go on" for him. I leaned on his shoulder, and he put his arm around me and gave me a kiss. romantic? yes. He's so amazing.
Last night, I spent time with another boy. I didnt' enjoy it. All i was thinking about was scott. All I want is Scott. I was gonna do the non-exclusive thing, and just hook up with people. But I realized that I don't want that. I just want Scott. And I like him enough to wait for him <3333